how do i tell people that i badly want to stop? that i can't go further. that this is it for me. that i'm losing it. that i can no longer carry on.
how do i tell people i'm badly hurting from within? that my heart's been crushed into pieces and i can no longer mend it back—enough to be full again.
how do i tell people that it's getting worse everyday? that i don't want to get out of my bed nor eat. that i just want to let the world turn around while i stay in my comfort zone—empty but not hurt, sad but not hopeless, still but not anxious.
how do i tell people that i want to give up? that i want to cease existing once again, to end the excruciating pain that sleeps next to me every now and then, to leave home and be lost, and to be buried with my dreams—six feet underneath the ground.
—K. RDV.
